Hello!

Hi there!

This year has started very well indeed. I have been feeling better and more spiritual. At home and at Church. The Gospel teaches us to focus on the home, have family home evenings etc. I always get a little sad when they say that at Church. Like: "Get married young, have lots of kids etc." I'm like: "SURE." Whatever. It makes me sad. I cannot count the times people have tried to "help me". They really think I need to hear for the umpteenth time, that "The time will come, when you will get married. etc." Yeah. Really? HAHA. They really do not know me. They think I'm one of those "desperado sisters". Well, newsflash: If I was ever a "desperado sister" I most certainly am not anymore. MY DAD SAID: ONLY MARRY FOR LOVE. Now, that is something many sisters and brothers in the Church need to take in. How ever clever, smart, handsome whatever, a man thinks he is, he cannot change a lady's heart to love him! Especially if he thinks a little too highly of himself. LOL. Some men think they are God's gift to the world. Sorry, but not sorry, they are not.

There are so many different aspect to this thing we call LOVE. I lived in Sweden. Obviously, I was pretty ugly compared to those super-models... But it was good, because now I realize, I really didn't love any of my so-called crushes back then. HA! That is awful, but true...It felt good to be young in Stockholm. It is a lovely city, my heart will always have a place for Stockholm. Forever.

It is kinda fun to know some things about oneself, that people could never guess. For example, I have played the piano since I was 16 and have taught myself that. Nowadays, when I play on Sundays before the meetings, afterwards, at least two people come to me every Sunday and say: "What!? You can play the piano?!?" It is so fun. When people have pegged you for a really stupid, uneducated, mentally very ill person, with no talents, it feels good as heck to show off just a little. LOL

Same with men. So many people are like: "Cindy is so ill, no one will ever love her, she is so sick and fat and etc." Well, then when I have had boyfriends they're like: "That dude she is dating is HOT!" I'm like: "what did you expect?" LOL: Yes, sure, because I'm a little round and have pimples still, even though I'm 39, I do not deserve any less the same as you." Besides, beauty is inside and in the eye of the beholder.

Other thing that bothers me, is when people think they know the whole story. They are like: "Watch out for this or that!" or "Don't do that because it's like this..." How do they know every aspect of my life?!? I'm like:"I'm gonna eat this candy and it's my choice"... LOL.

But, seriously, showing off to people who think you are not worthy of love, have low IQ or something, that is the BEST. And they do not know anything about being you. True story.