Hello!
I'm back, yo! :) I have been updating my other blogs, sorry that I have forgotten a little about you...
I started a blog about me reading the entire Bible, from cover to cover, no time schedule, no hurry, no worry... It is a project that I have been starting with my friend. So far I have read Matt.1-3. I am really slow, I know. But with the Bible, it's good to take things slow. Here is the blog:
https://thebibleandcinders.blogspot.com/
I want to really savor and learn and ponder everything in the Bible, so it is completely fine to read only a few chapters a week. Yeah. I am happy I finally started this project. I cannot count the times I have read the Book of Mormon or Doctrine and Covenants... MANY: Every year I listen, continually, to the Book of Mormon with my Dad. He lives in another town, but we call each other and I put the Book of Mormon audio on from:
https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/?lang=eng
We listen to it in English, because there are no other languages available and we want to read it in the "original language". lol. If you a Mormon, you know what I mean lol. Yeah, I know it sounds weird. I am weird. lol
I have had a really good week so far. I have prayed a little more than "usual". I swear, I was in a kind of prayer-slump last year... It was awful. I felt so much and such severe anxiety, it was almost impossible to pray. When 2020 arrived, it eased up. I pray in my mind mostly and mostly in Swedish, which is my first native tongue. I love prayer and I also have a prayer journal, but I haven't written in it all of 2020. It has been a while... I also have a gratitude journal. Same there. Have not written in it for a loooong while. Sorry. It is awful.
Then I have about 100 000 spiritual journals. lol. Just kidding, maybe like 10-15. I write mostly in English. It has become my "spiritual language". I had a talk at church last Sunday. I did not speak, my friend S read it out loud. Many people liked it. I might post it here. But be ye warned: it is in Finnish. lol
More later!
Thursday, January 23, 2020
Tuesday, January 14, 2020
Hello!
Hi there!
This year has started very well indeed. I have been feeling better and more spiritual. At home and at Church. The Gospel teaches us to focus on the home, have family home evenings etc. I always get a little sad when they say that at Church. Like: "Get married young, have lots of kids etc." I'm like: "SURE." Whatever. It makes me sad. I cannot count the times people have tried to "help me". They really think I need to hear for the umpteenth time, that "The time will come, when you will get married. etc." Yeah. Really? HAHA. They really do not know me. They think I'm one of those "desperado sisters". Well, newsflash: If I was ever a "desperado sister" I most certainly am not anymore. MY DAD SAID: ONLY MARRY FOR LOVE. Now, that is something many sisters and brothers in the Church need to take in. How ever clever, smart, handsome whatever, a man thinks he is, he cannot change a lady's heart to love him! Especially if he thinks a little too highly of himself. LOL. Some men think they are God's gift to the world. Sorry, but not sorry, they are not.
There are so many different aspect to this thing we call LOVE. I lived in Sweden. Obviously, I was pretty ugly compared to those super-models... But it was good, because now I realize, I really didn't love any of my so-called crushes back then. HA! That is awful, but true...It felt good to be young in Stockholm. It is a lovely city, my heart will always have a place for Stockholm. Forever.
It is kinda fun to know some things about oneself, that people could never guess. For example, I have played the piano since I was 16 and have taught myself that. Nowadays, when I play on Sundays before the meetings, afterwards, at least two people come to me every Sunday and say: "What!? You can play the piano?!?" It is so fun. When people have pegged you for a really stupid, uneducated, mentally very ill person, with no talents, it feels good as heck to show off just a little. LOL
Same with men. So many people are like: "Cindy is so ill, no one will ever love her, she is so sick and fat and etc." Well, then when I have had boyfriends they're like: "That dude she is dating is HOT!" I'm like: "what did you expect?" LOL: Yes, sure, because I'm a little round and have pimples still, even though I'm 39, I do not deserve any less the same as you." Besides, beauty is inside and in the eye of the beholder.
Other thing that bothers me, is when people think they know the whole story. They are like: "Watch out for this or that!" or "Don't do that because it's like this..." How do they know every aspect of my life?!? I'm like:"I'm gonna eat this candy and it's my choice"... LOL.
But, seriously, showing off to people who think you are not worthy of love, have low IQ or something, that is the BEST. And they do not know anything about being you. True story.
This year has started very well indeed. I have been feeling better and more spiritual. At home and at Church. The Gospel teaches us to focus on the home, have family home evenings etc. I always get a little sad when they say that at Church. Like: "Get married young, have lots of kids etc." I'm like: "SURE." Whatever. It makes me sad. I cannot count the times people have tried to "help me". They really think I need to hear for the umpteenth time, that "The time will come, when you will get married. etc." Yeah. Really? HAHA. They really do not know me. They think I'm one of those "desperado sisters". Well, newsflash: If I was ever a "desperado sister" I most certainly am not anymore. MY DAD SAID: ONLY MARRY FOR LOVE. Now, that is something many sisters and brothers in the Church need to take in. How ever clever, smart, handsome whatever, a man thinks he is, he cannot change a lady's heart to love him! Especially if he thinks a little too highly of himself. LOL. Some men think they are God's gift to the world. Sorry, but not sorry, they are not.
There are so many different aspect to this thing we call LOVE. I lived in Sweden. Obviously, I was pretty ugly compared to those super-models... But it was good, because now I realize, I really didn't love any of my so-called crushes back then. HA! That is awful, but true...It felt good to be young in Stockholm. It is a lovely city, my heart will always have a place for Stockholm. Forever.
It is kinda fun to know some things about oneself, that people could never guess. For example, I have played the piano since I was 16 and have taught myself that. Nowadays, when I play on Sundays before the meetings, afterwards, at least two people come to me every Sunday and say: "What!? You can play the piano?!?" It is so fun. When people have pegged you for a really stupid, uneducated, mentally very ill person, with no talents, it feels good as heck to show off just a little. LOL
Same with men. So many people are like: "Cindy is so ill, no one will ever love her, she is so sick and fat and etc." Well, then when I have had boyfriends they're like: "That dude she is dating is HOT!" I'm like: "what did you expect?" LOL: Yes, sure, because I'm a little round and have pimples still, even though I'm 39, I do not deserve any less the same as you." Besides, beauty is inside and in the eye of the beholder.
Other thing that bothers me, is when people think they know the whole story. They are like: "Watch out for this or that!" or "Don't do that because it's like this..." How do they know every aspect of my life?!? I'm like:"I'm gonna eat this candy and it's my choice"... LOL.
But, seriously, showing off to people who think you are not worthy of love, have low IQ or something, that is the BEST. And they do not know anything about being you. True story.
Monday, January 6, 2020
Happy New Year!
Hello there!
I am sorry I did not write yesterday. I forgot and was tired. Our ward schedule changed. Now the meetings that I attend start 10.00 a.m. It is a bit early, because I need to leave home before 09.00 am. I play the piano before the meeting starts and I like to be early. Yesterday it was fun to play the piano. Many people who have thought me to have inferior intelligence, saw that I am not as stupid as they might think. It is amazing. A little pressing of black and white keys and suddenly you are not that bad! lol I still like the people best, who support me before they find out I am intelligent lol. Most of all, people who treat everyone the same, high iq, mental health issues or not. I have all kind of friends and I try to treat them the same. It is part of living with integrity. Be true, be yourself and treat everyone with respect.
Yesterday was the fast- and testimony -meeting. I bore my testimony as the first one of this decade in Tampere 1st ward. LOL. It was a really nice meeting. My friends were sitting next to me and everything was great. I am so happy and grateful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ. It is the best. Yesterday I really felt this. I felt happiness and calm and peace.
Now I am listening to the soundtrack to The Muppets Christmas Carol -movie. It is really uplifting and beautiful, fun too.
Today I have been trying to continue my well-begun happy and spiritual new year 2020. It is so wonderful. To be alive, to be relatively healthy, to be pretty young still, to have friends, family, cats... I love music, books, my hobbies and everything lovely and good thing that are a part of my life. Life is good.
More later!
I am sorry I did not write yesterday. I forgot and was tired. Our ward schedule changed. Now the meetings that I attend start 10.00 a.m. It is a bit early, because I need to leave home before 09.00 am. I play the piano before the meeting starts and I like to be early. Yesterday it was fun to play the piano. Many people who have thought me to have inferior intelligence, saw that I am not as stupid as they might think. It is amazing. A little pressing of black and white keys and suddenly you are not that bad! lol I still like the people best, who support me before they find out I am intelligent lol. Most of all, people who treat everyone the same, high iq, mental health issues or not. I have all kind of friends and I try to treat them the same. It is part of living with integrity. Be true, be yourself and treat everyone with respect.
Yesterday was the fast- and testimony -meeting. I bore my testimony as the first one of this decade in Tampere 1st ward. LOL. It was a really nice meeting. My friends were sitting next to me and everything was great. I am so happy and grateful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ. It is the best. Yesterday I really felt this. I felt happiness and calm and peace.
Now I am listening to the soundtrack to The Muppets Christmas Carol -movie. It is really uplifting and beautiful, fun too.
Today I have been trying to continue my well-begun happy and spiritual new year 2020. It is so wonderful. To be alive, to be relatively healthy, to be pretty young still, to have friends, family, cats... I love music, books, my hobbies and everything lovely and good thing that are a part of my life. Life is good.
More later!
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